The Meaning of the Word "Grit".

This is one of the words that I chose for the month of January. The dictionary shows the word to be the following: firmness of character; indomitable spirit; pluck. To be in my situation right now, right here; with my weight issues, self esteem issues, and jobless issues, the key to succeeding through it all and coming out on top is to have firmness of character which is to see who and what you are and can be and stick to it. It is to have an indomitable spirit which means that no matter how temporarily defeated you may feel, it is the strength of spirit that wins out over any adversity. And pluck is to have courage and resolution in the face of difficulties. That is what Grit means. And I KNOW that I possess those personality traits, hell, this is not the first time in my life that I have had to face challenges. Where is that street smart Ruth? Where is that Ruth with the awesome survival instinct? Where is the Ruth who says what the hell does CAN'T mean? Damn, I have given this alot of thought and the Ruth who is typing this blog is just a small portion of who that person was. How did I let myself get beat down so far? How did I allow the negative influences to crawl under my skin? Holy Cow. Well I think those personality traits have been hidden below the many layers of self defeating attitude. They are coming out slowly, it seems, kicking and screaming but nevertheless, are reaching the surface and Heaven help us when they do.