Contemplate, Ruminate, and Cogitate on the next step for me

Well I would love to be able to say that this is uncharted territory for me but this is simply a case of deja vu. Only this time it wasn't such a shock. I had anticipated and pretty much planned for the eventuality of the layoff. Now, it still has a psychological and emotional effect, there is no denying that. It's just that it is not nearly as jarring as the big surprise that hit me when I was let go from OutBack. But out of the fire of course rises the Phoenix. Again. I will look a bit harder this time and more diligently but I also think it is time to buckle down and get at least one of my books written. There is no excuse for putting it off this time. It certainly won't be for lack of time and opportunity if it doesn't get done. It will be due to laziness, pure and simple. And since LAZY will not be a factor in my vocabulary for at least the foreseeable future, I should be able to get alot of things done. This week is crazy for us because we are planning for our cruise which departs on Saturday. There are tons of things to get done for that. But after we get back and things begin to settle down for me, I can get much more focused on the projects that I need to do for me. Not for the house, not for the family, but for me. So, writing in my blog is another one of the routines that I am going to try to adopt. There you have it. Good luck to ME!

Validating your gut. (Intuition, premonition, etc)

Well, there's a funny thing that exists that alot of people don't listen to. That is their intuition or gut or whatever you want to call it. I posted on July 26th that "Something tells me I will have more time to write on my blog soon. More later.". I had a feeling that things were not going to continue with my job for a variety of reasons and sometime in mid july I heard my gut giving me signals. I took down my orange lizard that was hanging on the pipe next to my desk. I started culling out and taking home personal belongings and cleaning up and organizing all of the files on the computer that I used, in order to make it easier for my boss and my replacement?! to find what they needed quicker. It was finally decided on Tuesday last week that my last day would be Friday, this one just past, and lo and behold, I had very little to take home because it was already done. From a job standpoint, this has happened to me only once before where I felt something was coming but was just not sure. I was at Western Microtechnology in Redmond. I had a weird feeling in my stomach, kind of a nervous thing. I took home most of the things that belonged to me and cleaned up my desk and my files. That was on a Tuesday and on Friday, I had been laid off. There wasn't any iminent feeling in the office of a change in the business levels or anything else for that matter so it wasn't as if it could have been anticipated by anyone, except those that were making the decisions. It was an odd feeling but there you have it. I have also had that happen to me in other situations where it turned out in some cases to have been minor and others to have been significant.

There's a lot to be said for paying attention to your first thought, intuition or gut. What normally happens with most people, me included sometimes, is that you will second guess yourself. You really do know the answer to that question on jeopardy and it's the one that pops into your head first, but then you question it, begin to doubt it, and lose confidence in your knowledge. Never do that.

So, my gut has been validated. I do now have more time to spend writing on my blog and write I will. I have been sorely missing my use of the printed word to express my more cosmic thoughts. If you're looking for a daily diary of happenings, check facebook or my daughter's blog. If you are looking for something that delves into the deeper layers of my world, stick around. It could be a bumpy but fun ride.